"I have a lot I want to do with my life but sometimes sleeping seems better than anything else, so I tend to do that a lot."
So far the world has been good to me but that doesn’t stop me from being terrified of the future. I don’t know where I want to be in 5 or 10 years, all that takes too much planning and tomorrow seems stressful enough for me right now.
I was inches from you in that dark room. I wanted to touch you, to just feel you for one second but it was everything I could to keep myself away. You were unhealthy, you made me do things I regretted. I guess that’s how it all started; I wanted to just live for one night and you pulled me farther than I had planned. That night turned into weeks and months and I was slipping away from myself. I wanted to touch you so bad that night but I knew if I did, I wouldn’t stop.
my whole life consists of wondering whether or not to make the bitchy comment
I wrap my arms around my knees and breathe, because sometimes sadness comes like seasons.
And I’ll say good luck with your endeavors, may god wish you well wherever you go. I’ll pray your love stays in good hands. I’ll think of you often for awhile, and then from time to time as the seasons pass. I’ll always feel this way in the summer, I’ll always mix up my words and breathe a little…
